“In the difficulties which are placed before me, why should I not act like a donkey?
- When one speaks ill of him – the donkey says nothing.
- When he is mistreated – he says nothing.
- When he is forgotten – he says nothing.
- When no food is given him – he says nothing.
- When he is made to advance – he says nothing.
- When he is despised – he says nothing.
- When he is overburdened – he says nothing.
The true servant of God must do likewise, and say with David: ‘Before Thee I have become like a beast of burden.'” ~ Saint Alphonsus Rodriguez
Our Lord says that, no matter what, we will say: “I only did what I had to do.” And I say, “I am just so very far from that. I wish I could say that.”
This bit from Saint Alphonsus Rodriguez is the thing I need for an examination of conscience. I am not worthy to be the donkey that I am. I am tempted so that…
- when someone speaks ill of me – I speak ill of others;
- when I am mistreated – I respond in kind;
- when I am forgotten – I make sure everyone takes note;
- When no food is given to me – I nevertheless eat all I can;
- When I am made to advance – I say that it’s the wrong path;
- When I am despised – people will be afraid to do that again;
- When I am overburdened – I find even more things to do, or do nothing.
The mistake I am tempted to make is to take myself seriously. No donkey ever does that. Dear Lord. Please. That I might be a true donkey.